...or so, and I still can't go to sleep.  Kevin and I ended up doing the presents at night instead of in the morning, because I am really bad about waiting to give people things until the proper time.  To be honest, I am not even sure how I am typing this right now because my brain feels like mush, Kevin thinks I'm working on adrenaline right now and that is what is carrying me through.

We had a practically perfect Christmas Eve/Christmas get together with Kevin's parents, brother, and two nephews.  For me, I think it was the best Christmas I have had since moving to California to be with Kevin.  The boys seemed to be in a good mood and I was actually able to chat with them some, which is a first, at least with the youngest (not their fault, I get really shy if there are more than a couple of people around and we only see each other at most twice a year, and usually less, it generally takes me ages to warm up to people even if they are perfectly nice people and have never given me a reason to fear them), which made me feel really good because family is very important to me and feeling like I am really a part of this one makes me really happy.  We got there early because I had a feeling Kevin's brother and nephews' might already be there, I was half right, the boys were there, but Dwain had gone out to run an errand so he showed up a little later.  The boys played on a video game Kevin had brought for them to borrow which they happily played and while my head started spinning shortly after getting there, I insisted Kevin spend time with his family because he doesn't get to see his brother or nephews very often and I know how much it would mean to me to get to see my brother in person again, so I don't want him to regret the chance of not getting to talk to his when he has the opportunity.  Fortunately by the time dinner was ready I was feeling up to trying to be part of conversation and managed to do okay.  The food was delicious, Kevin's parents (specifically his mom for this meal I think) are both really good cooks.  And no, it wasn't raw vegan, but I figure for Christmas we can take a brake for a couple of days, besides, once News Years comes around we will probably be going really strict again.

After dinner we decorated the gingerbread men cookies.  At first the boys were resistant to the idea, but once they actually started it went over really well.  The two nephews each had their own, Dwain had one, and Kevin and I shared one to decorate.  It was kind of funny, but the youngest nephew and I both made, well, lets just say they taste good, despite looking a bit of a mess.  At first the youngest had told Kevin he just wanted to get it done (probably to play video games) so Kevin slapped on some frosting and let him at it, then after seeing how nice his brother's and his father's was coming out, he wanted to add his own icing and started putting more of an effort in.  Mine, well, I just wanted to smash has much candy into the frosting as I could.  I was trying to make it look nice, but, well, it tasted good (I have only eaten the feet so far).  I was really impressed with the oldest nephew, he really took his time with the frosting and thought about what would look best where as did Dwain and they both came out beautifully, like nice enough you would have thought they were bought that way.  But it turned out to be great fun and everyone was laughing and chatting and commenting on everyone else's cookie and Dwain took some pictures which I can't wait to see.

After that was the presents; I wasn't expecting any but we did actually get some and they were really nice, very thoughtful.  I now have a new, very comfy looking eye/sleep mask.  Depending on how it feels, I may switch out the one I use to sleep during the day with, with the new one and put the one I have been using in the car for when I have to go somewhere during the day (I often wonder if people think I am being taken somewhere against my will when Kevin is driving me around with the eye masks on).  It also included a very pretty elephant (my favorite animal) and some lovely small frames, which I am sure we will find things to go in.  Kevin got a video game he really wanted as well; that was all from Dwain.  His parents gave us a lovely bird bath, which I am certain our birds will appreciate because they fight over the two bird baths and the two level fountain they already have to play in, so obviously, they need more space for water.  But it was very lovely and thoughtful and completely unexpected since they had given Kevin a really nice blender we had been saving for, for his birthday and had told him it was our Christmas as well.  Everyone seemed to like the gifts we had for them which made me happy as we really weren't sure what to get everyone when we first started trying to figure out what to do for this Christmas season.

After presents, Kevin, his mom, the two nephews and I played a dominos game I have already forgotten the name of, but was fortunately easy enough for me to play that I managed to get through the few rounds we did play.  Again, great fun, lots of laughing and I was also amazed the boys wanted to play a dominos game instead of playing their new video games they had gotten.  Fortunately by the time they decided to stop my head was starting to spin and while we did stay a little longer, I felt pretty good that Kevin had really been able to get a good visit in with everyone.  

Once we got home we did go ahead and do the presents to each other.  I hadn't really known what to expect, our budgets are generally really small so when Kevin placed several boxes under the tree, I half thought they would be the holiday pencils from Target and Wal-Mart you can get for a dollar a pack, and I would have been completely happy with that.  What I ended up with well exceeded my expectations, a couple of CDs I really wanted and some games that I know I am going to enjoy playing.  I was also really happy that I was able to give Kevin something.  It has been a while since I have been able to actually give him a gift, not being able to work, not being able to go anywhere on my own, because of my health means, I can't buy the one person I really want to give gifts to daily, anything, even on his birthday or Christmas.  Kevin understand and he says he doesn't mind; he says my love is the best gift he can have and he is happy to have that daily.  But still, I really wanted to give him something, so I asked for help.  I don't normally ask for help, I don't like admitting to myself more than anything that I can't do something, but I guess not being able to wrap a present for him and put my name on the from part of the tag finally wore on me enough that I finally had to ask.  He now has three very large angry birds, from the app that he enjoys playing on his phone.  I had only asked for one and a small one at that, because I hated having to ask, but my helper was feeling very generous and got three for me to give, and they all come up to my knee.  And you know what, I think Kevin loves them.  He got the biggest smile on his face when he opened the first box from me and it just got bigger as he opened the other two.  It made me so happy and in the end we each gave each other the best gift we could ask for, seeing the other smile.

Well, I need to find a way to get myself to sleep so that I might be somewhat functional for the Christmas breakfast we will be joining his family for; I'm really looking forward to it, they're making bacon!!!