I was looking at pictures of me and Kevin from our wedding because the longer I looked at our SimSelves, the less I thought they looked like us. The nose on mine was way out of proportion to the rest of the face, and Kevin's seemed to have daggers for cheek bones, and I couldn't figure out why they looked so off.

Normally when I make my SimSelf I look in a mirror next to the screen, but this was middle of the night (I appear to be in no sleep mode again) and even with lights on the mirror is doesn't really work well, so I was using the wedding album, besides, Kevin was asleep, would have been mean to try and make his SimSelf with the lights in the bedroom while he slept. I was thinking to myself that I do actually like the way I look, at least, I like the way I look in these pictures, and other than some very light foundation, I am not wearing any more makeup than I normally do and my hair is close to how it usually was before my medical problems got to the point of disabling. And then I was confused because I haven't thought I looked pretty for a while and so I looked in the mirror and realized, I don't even recognize myself. I couldn't even recognize myself when I held the picture up next to my face in the mirror to see that they are the same.

What I think has made the biggest difference is that I now have somewhere around an inch to maybe two inches of hair length and all of my hair is the same length; it used to be a couple of feet long. We had to buzz my hair down because it was causing me massive scalp pain, couldn't even lay my head down on a pillow. It is already gotten to the point where running my fingers through it makes me want to throw-up at the length it currently is. I may not be able to get it to the length I once had it (scalp pain on top of migraine pain is maddening) but I am hoping that if it is a little longer, if I can learn to tolerate the nausea and stop touching my hair, maybe I will feel a little more like myself. Maybe I could start to recognize myself in the mirror again. Only way to find out is to try.